My last working day of this year was yesterday.
Today I moved from Tokyo with my cats, to my wife's home town.
From today, we will stay there and take rest.
The picture is my younger cat at wife's home.
You’re no longer open to opportunities
I got an email from LinkedIn.
It let me know that my status in LinkedIn was automatically changed.
It makes sense because I haven't replied to many messages yet.
But I got demotivated because it means I don't have enough energy even just for replying messages.
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風邪ひいて声が出ないと英語の練習ができなくて困る。日課をこなせることが小さな楽しみでもあったので楽しみを奪われて余計に気も滅入る。
手持ちのカードと情報を元手にいろいろ考えてベストな役を作ろうとするそばから、強い手札が消えていったりこれまでの予測の前提を覆すような情報が出てきたりしてプランをめちゃくちゃにされる、そんなようなことばかり続いて嫌になる。真面目に考えても台無しにされるのなら考えるだけ無駄。もう疲れた。
クリスマスは体調不良で楽しめなかったけど、年末年始は都会の喧騒から離れてゆっくりする予定なので、心身共に休んで、2020年から先の人生をどう生きるかじっくり考えて答えを出したい。
Awful nasal voice 2
Getting worse than yesterday.
Throat pain is recovering.
Had a discussion session with dozens of people, again. It's too hard to have them same understanding, but I can't believe why it's so hard?
It is super boring work. Totally sense of labor. Nothing improved my strengths. Feel like it's a waste of life.
On the other hand, good thing, an engineering manager showed great improvement of his management skills.
I felt rewarded because I tried to spend much time and effort for him to grow himself.
Awful nasal voice
It's been a long time since I caught a cold last time.
Everyone leave me behind. The situation looks like a catastrophe. Maybe I can maintain it. Maybe I should. But why I, only who gets left behind, should do that?