@kyanny's blog

My thoughts, my life. Views/opinions are my own.

Success

Although I don't follow social news actively, sometimes I see social news accidentally. Say someone gets promoted; someone wrote a blog post to announce resignation with implying a better job, etc.

I don't regret my career decision. I stopped pursuing promotion in the organization hierarchy because being a leader/manager was so stressful that I lost my health physically and mentally. It was an inevitable decision to survive.

It's been about a year since I got a job as an individual contributor. Today I am very healthy physically and mentally. I'm not so stressed (almost none of the stress, comparing to a few years ago) that I am happy.

However, when I see someone looks successful, I get nervous and depressed. I feel someone blames me for my escape from the competition in the market.

This night, I felt the same. I went to walk to stop thinking myself the answerless question.